I am feel super frustrated right now.

Seriously, i don't know what's wrong. I tried all ways and means. Things just isn't happening the way i expected it to turn out. I keep telling myself things will change but it never did. And it keeps getting worse. It's just like the domino effect. It just keeps falling and falling and falling. Normally, it's not as bad. But in recent weeks, EVERY single time (and i am not exaggerating by saying that) it turns out to be nothing but empty hopes. Things got so bad that i started to suspect that i am put under some kind of curse. How could it be possible that EVERY single time, the outcome was the same??? I tried to keep my hopes up everyday, only to be shattered the very next day. I wanted to help, but help is often out of my reach. All i want is to be given the opportunity.

Why can't people keep to their words?

Why can't they be more responsible?

Are they really that heartless that they don't even care how others feel about it?

Don't they even have the basic courtesy to give advance notice?

I hate this feeling.

I hate being taken for granted

I hate being the "standby option"

I hate it when it makes me look as though i am desperate because i am not.

I really really hope things will get better soon. Maybe this is the challenge i have to face along the way to make myself stronger. I like this quote by Orison Swett Marden that says:

And I will strive on because i know sooner or later, things WILL get better.