What do you do when someone close to you betrayed your trust, not once but twice?

Do you forgive that person, give him another chance or never ever trust him again?

It sucks.... It really does. Certain things in life are just so ironic... Maybe it's fated. The more you try to hide, the higher the chance of getting caught. If it's meant to happen, it will happen. There is no way you can hide.

Maybe it's Karma.

I think my life is full of drama. I can't believe the world is so small. Or maybe god just wants to help me by arranging for all those things to happen.

To let me see and hear things that i would have otherwise been kept in the dark.

To tell me to wake up and stop being stubborn

To ask me to stop being a fool and let my heart rules over my head.

To remind me to be strong and not to hurt myself anymore.

To let me know there is someone else waiting for me.

For someone who is alway talking about karma, i hope he knows what he is doing and talking about. A friend of mine used to tell me what goes around comes around. I totally believe in this. If you can hurt someone close to you by doing things you shouldn't have done, eventually somebody else will do the same thing back to you in future.

Right now, i don't know what my next step should be. I don't know whether i can forgive and forget. I just feel so angry and hurt... The pain is excruciating. If only there is a pill for me to stop this pain. I think i am starting to have phobia. A phobia which, i don't know how long it will last. I don't know whether i can bring myself to trust another person again. I placed my faith on a person who i thought i can trust, but my trust was misplaced again and again. Will i be able to find my true happiness??? Maybe it's better to be with no one than to be with the wrong one.

I am mentally exhausted... I can't think anymore. My eyes hurts... I just want to sleep and not think about anything. I hope when i woke up, everything was just a nightmare.