I am very confused right now. Going crazy in fact~

Why is everything repeating again at around the same period as last year. Even the new ringtone, an anomymous person, unintentional avoidance, the re-entering of xxx into the situation, the timing of the events and even the timing of the msg. Arrgh!!! It's like a vicious circle bordering on spookiness the way things happen. It's like i am part of a drama re-run with similar characters and settings. What should i do now??? I need an answer. Where can i find it? Help!!!!

I know the only difference now is i still have the power to change the path i want to go. Will there eventually be a light at the end of the tunnel? I hope so... I really hope so. That is the only thing that keeps me going right now and give me some hope. I am also comforted by the fact that there are so many people who cares, even those whom i hardly know well. And i think i owed them an apology for making them worried for me. Many things have been happening in my life recently, including my family and people close to me. I am really sorry if i can't control myself and unintentionally hurt some people along the way.

Guess i need a temporary break to divert myself from the whole situation now. I just want to concentrate on things far more important ahead, which is my studies. There are only 2 weeks plus remaining before exam starts. I need to focus! Things will get better...

Yes, I know i can do it!