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NAME: 大路痴
You only Live Once, so LIVE to dare, DARE to try, TRY to succeed, SUCCEED to fail, FAIL to learn, LEARN to live
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Wishlist
* A Tablet
* Iphone 4
* Coach or Gucci bag/pouch/wallet
* A Mont Blanc Pen
* A Nintendo Wii
* A car license
* A car
* A diving license
* Qualify for Achievers Club 2010
* Reach my ideal weight of 50kg
* Try Bungee Jumping
* Try 'The Line' buffet at Shangri La Hotel
* A Man Utd Home Jersey
* Watch a Man U match live at Old Trafford
* Go Taiwan/HK/Thailand/Korea/Japan/
/USA/Aussie/Europe
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Wednesday, June 25, 2008
THE REAL WORLD
I finally realised something:
Nothing is real in this world except MONEY.
I know this sounds superficial but i am not gonna lie and say that money is not important to me. Those people who claim that money isn't everything are lying. That is because they did not experience what it is like to be really down in the dump. Money IS everything.
For example, just the other day at a family gathering, i overheard a conversation among my relatives while i was sitting there, enjoying my 2nd bowl of Bo Bo Cha Cha (yup, i love this obviously). Through the clutter generated from the house overloaded with even more relatives, a phrase from one of them caught my attention.
"钱不是万能 但是没钱万万不能"
And the subsequent topic actually escalated into a mini quarrel among my relatives which, of course i automatically stayed out of it.
I have seen a lot and heard a lot of things from people around me recently. Some said money is the root of all evil. But the chinese phrase above is so true. I know it may not give me anything that i want. But what i am sure is that i will at least be happier knowing that there are spare changes in my pocket. I will have less worries to trouble about and i can do more things with it. Everything in my life will probably be much better, be it family, school, relationships, friends, jobs and whatever shit i can think of. The worse part of this is that the rich will gets richer while the poor will gets poorer. Sucks right? Nothing is fair in this world.
I also hate it when people start complaining that their parents don't give them enough allowances when obviously what they have is consider a bonus to other people. What about those whose parents don't give them allowances at all? Rot and die? Or beg on the street? Or how about the people who gave you a questioning look when you did not purchase something just because you find it slightly expensive? Obviously, the same group of people must be thinking that the item is NOT THAT EXPENSIVE, and probably wonder why you are so wishy-washy over such small money. How about those who wonder why you can't just relax and enjoy your life instead of stuggling so hard just to earn those few hundred bucks? I know these people can buy things without batting an eyelid. But do they know that what is NOTHING MUCH to some people is a BIG DEAL to other people?And then there are another kind of people who think that you are stingy or anti-social when you refused to join in a particular gathering. Do those people know the real reason behind that person's action? And there are one more type of people who think that everything will be much better once you get a job. Unfortunately those people do not know that instead of having a better life, there are people who have to start repaying the loans which they raised to pay off whatever shit they owed previously. Life still sucks. The cycle repeats. Nothing changes. That is why i said money is EVERYTHING. Find me one person who said money isn't everything and i will be glad to help him/her spend all their money, right to the last cent. Maybe they will have a slightly different opinion after that.
Sigh... After saying so much, i guess there will forever be people in this world who just took things for granted. These are the people who will never understand how other people feel. Probably only those in the same boat will understand.
I hate the unfairness of this world...
Posted by 大路痴
@ 6:40 PM
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Thursday, June 12, 2008
LOST
I really don't know what's wrong with me recently. I was having a severe mood swing. Even the slightest thing seem to irritate the hell out of me. I was losing control of myself.
One moment, i was like living in heaven, the next moment, i felt as if i was banished to hell. It was just so extreme. Sometimes, i felt so helpless. And the more i think about it, the more things seem to go the other way. It was as if i was drowning in a quicksand, hoping for a hand to pull me up. The only faint hope that i was holding onto seem to drift further and further away from me, out of my grasp.
Everything seems so real at first. It's been a long time since i felt that way, the happiness that i crave for. But now, it seem to appear and disappear in fits and starts. My worse fear came true when i accidently saw something i was hoping not to see. Was everything at the beginning just an illusion, i wonder? And just today, i did something which i never thought i would ever have the courage to do so. I guess better to do it now than regret not trying in future. Now the ball is in the other court. Whether it will come back to me is another thing. Although the hope is very slim now, at least i know i have tried. Maybe it's time to give up on that hope.
On the other hand, the nightmare i was hoping to get rid of keeps coming back to haunt me again and again recently. I thought i had finally woke up from the nightmare, but i guess i was wrong. It was there all along. Sometimes i really blame myself for everything that happened. I wish i was strong enough to fight it but i guess i am just too weak. Too weak for everything and anything. I am fighting an internal struggle with myself. And i really hate myself for that. And now, i have to think of a way to deal with this nightmare of mine. I have never felt as helpless as what i am experiencing now. Everything just goes against me. Really, everything. Just when i thought i found a path, the path turns out to be another dead end. It just keeps repeating. What exactly is wrong? Am i cursed or what? I really wish i could get out of this rot. The time keeps ticking but i am still stuck at where i am.
I seem to have lost my direction...
Posted by 大路痴
@ 6:14 PM
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Friday, June 6, 2008
PISSED OFF!!!
I am so angry!!!!!
I am so angry!!!!!
I am so angry!!!!!!!
I am so angry!!!!!!!!!!!
I am soooooo angry!!!!!!
@#*&%!#!*#%KNS#!%
I am FUMING! ARRRRRRGH!!! How can they do this to me???? Just when i thought i finally secured a job to last me through the rest of the holiday and earned some badly needed pocket money, they suddenly dropped a bombshell on me after working there for only 3 days! It was verbally agreed that i was supposed to work for 1 month. A call from my agent just now informing me that they found a perm person for this job took me completely by surprise. I have not even receive my timesheet yet. Now they told me i need not report for work anymore??? No warning, no anything. Hello!!! What do they treat me as? Tissue paper? Use and throw? And the worst part is, neither the agent nor the company sign any job contract with me. So i think i am not entitled to any compensations. No wonder they did not hesitate to terminate me at all. And now i also know why they did not require me to sign any contract or go down to meet the agent. I even naively thought that i finally found a good job agency intially. So i was just a backup! What the fuck!!! They seriously have no work ethics. So unprofessional! I hate people who treat me like that. I hate people who took me for granted. I hate being a substitute. I had enough of being "taken advantage" by people in one way or another recently. Why is my life so screwed up? I just want to get out of all these shit!!! Why is it so difficult??
If anyone wants to know, the name of the agency who recommended me the job is called "temp-teams". The take home pay is not even great to start with, since cpf is taken into consideration. Yet, i still got to deal with this kind of shit. And the chair the company provides me with is a foldable plastic chair, causing me backache and sore butt (ya... i know this funny but it's true). Imagine sitting the whole day in front of the computer table on this kind of chair??? Frankly speaking, this is the first time i was not provided a proper office chair at work. Not trying to say that i am good, but most companies that i worked as admin thinks i am a good worker. I am also not trying to be super fussy or complain too much. Seriously, i think i deserved better treatment than that. Everything that just happened is seriously an insult to me. It's like being fired from the job. I really don't know whether to blame the agent or blame the company. I have never been so humilated by a job before. I just hate people who messed with me!! If they don't get another replacement job for me immediately, i am gonna tarnish their names in every forums that i know. So fucking irritated and pissed off...
Posted by 大路痴
@ 7:53 PM
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