* A Tablet
* Iphone 4
* Coach or Gucci bag/pouch/wallet
* A Mont Blanc Pen
* A Nintendo Wii
* A car license
* A car
* A diving license
* Qualify for Achievers Club 2010
* Reach my ideal weight of 50kg
* Try Bungee Jumping
* Try 'The Line' buffet at Shangri La Hotel
* A Man Utd Home Jersey
* Watch a Man U match live at Old Trafford
* Go Taiwan/HK/Thailand/Korea/Japan/ /USA/Aussie/Europe
Seriously, i don't know what's wrong. I tried all ways and means. Things just isn't happening the way i expected it to turn out. I keep telling myself things will change but it never did. And it keeps getting worse. It's just like the domino effect. It just keeps falling and falling and falling. Normally, it's not as bad. But in recent weeks, EVERY single time (and i am not exaggerating by saying that) it turns out to be nothing but empty hopes. Things got so bad that i started to suspect that i am put under some kind of curse. How could it be possible that EVERY single time, the outcome was the same??? I tried to keep my hopes up everyday, only to be shattered the very next day. I wanted to help, but help is often out of my reach. All i want is to be given the opportunity.
IS THAT REALLY TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?
Why can't people keep to their words?
Why can't they be more responsible?
Are they really that heartless that they don't even care how others feel about it?
Don't they even have the basic courtesy to give advance notice?
I hate this feeling.
I hate being taken for granted
I hate being the "standby option"
I hate it when it makes me look as though i am desperate because i am not.
I really really hope things will get better soon. Maybe this is the challenge i have to face along the way to make myself stronger. I like this quote by Orison Swett Marden that says:
'Success is not measured by what you accomplish but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds'
And I will strive on because i know sooner or later, things WILL get better.
It was only till yesterday then i realised i got M's name all wrong the whole time! His first name is M....., not R..... I always thought M..... is his nick in msn since he put R...... on his fb. Turns out R..... is his middle name. Feel like banging my head! No wonder Eugene gave me the "Kancheong Sotong" nick. Haha...
Anyway, this week has been a week of lows and high for me.
I just can't believe almost every single person fly my kite this week! It's either they are not feeling well, they forgot, they have extended meeting, they cant make it last min or blah blah.... And what's the most ironic thing? Me and my colleagues were having dinner together a few days ago and we were discussing about people flying our kites. One of them joked that we might as well fly a real one! And we did just that! So that night, we really drove down to Marina Barrage to fly kite after we finished our work. Very Onzzz right?????? Haha... Since it was a spontaneous decision, we had to stop by the 7-11 around that area to get the kites. To our major disappointment, there were kites but no kite spool & lines!
Even the "kite" also fly my kite! =_='''
Yaya... Stop laughing. I know it's funny and stupid.
We ended up playing basketball at the nearby basketball court till late into the night. Total madness! Wahahahaa...
To rub salt into the wound, today is actually M's bday, but he informed me a few days ago he won't be available as his parents are flying down from London today for a biz trip. Double sianzzz~~~ To think a few days ago i even cracked my head over where and how i should celebrate for him. He was nice though to suggest meeting a day earlier. So i sought Pea's help to customise a birthday card for him. After some discussion on what to draw for the card, this is what we came up with based on M's interest - Wine and Swimming.
Funny right???? Pea found an online cartoon image of a man trying to dive into a gigantic glass of red wine and we agreed to use this concept for M's card. Love it! :) Since i am talking about her customised card, i shall shun bian help her advertise again. Haha.... --> http://peanutos.wordpress.com/
And for what it's worth, M nearly fly my kite yesterday! We were discussing about the possibility of going Fort Canning for an outdoor band performance by this group, "Placebo" when he suddenly sms me to inform that his parents will be arriving 1 day earlier! So thurs night is out too! Can anyone get Suay-er than that??? I was already feeling down when one of my prospect fly my kite earlier in the noon. So my heart practically sunk right to the bottom when i heard the news from M. No doubt i am happy for him that his parents are coming down, but at the same time i just couldnt hide my disappointment. And i don't even know what to reply back...
Fortunately, there was a twist to the ending. I dunno if he sensed my disappointment or i am lucky. He left a msg subsequently to inform me that his parents flight was delayed! Hence, he suggested dinner together after i am done with my night appointment (ended up to be another kite -_-'''). We went for dinner at this chinese restaurant by the name of "China Club" on the 52nd level, the highest floor of Capital Tower. Pardon my sua ku-ness, but when i heard the name "China Club", i thought it is a bar outlet that serves chinese food and and most probably hires a lot of chinese staffs. Wahahaha... Turns out this place is surprisingly atas, cos it is open exclusively for members only. Thank god i was in my work attire yesterday, otherwise i will look totally out of place.
The view there is nothing but spectacular, overlooking the singapore skyline. I wish i brought my cam along, but on second thought, i think i wont dare to use it there anyway. Lolz... The dim lightings and soothing music provides for a nice and quiet ambience, ideal for a romantic date or even as a venue for business appointment (provided the client is worth it lah. Haha...)
Food wise, it is pretty decent, and for the month of March, they are having some kinda Australian Pear Promotion for the Ala Carte items. We ordered a few dishes, one of them being the 'Tea-smoked Duck with Australian Pear Jelly'. I kinda like it cos it has a wonderful smokey flavour to it. Each portion comes with 2 pieces only. A bit pathetic for that price. Ha... The other dish i like is the 'Baked Fillet of Sea Perch Topped with Black Truffle & Australian Pear'. Sounds very atas right? Lolz... And indeed it is. In fact, i only learn to appreciate truffle after Eugene intro me to truffle salt and truffle butter (good stuff!) Before that, I didnt know that truffles are difficult to find and hence, tend to be quite expensive. The black truffle and the sauce totally adds extra kick to the food, the aroma alone will make you wilt with pleasure. Love it!
No pics to show but i managed to find the pics of these 2 dishes on their webby:
Tea-smoked Duck with Australian Pear Jelly
Fillet of Sea Perch Topped with Black Truffle & Australian Pear
We ordered 2 more dishes - the 'Braised Homemade Hor Fun with Sliced Abalone and Bean Sprouts' and 'Fried Asparagus'. The latter was good but the Hor Fun was so-so only though.
One thing i notice is that if you are a big eater or if you are feeling hungry, the portion may be a tad too little, almost sample size (see pic above). Yes, that is the exact portion we were given per pax. So for the price conscious, i gotta warn that the price here is not exactly wallet-friendly.
M was particularly curious by this item on the dessert menu - "Hashima". I told him i THINK it is toad's sperm or saliva & he totally got this look of disbelief (!?!?) on his face. So cute! Haha... None of us dare to order it so we ordered something else. Actually i tried this Hashima dessert before in a chinese restaurant. I rem it tasting like jelly. Don't ask me why i tried it that time but i recalled my mum emphasizing that it's "good stuff"!
SO....... As usual, I did a search on google (my best friend. Hee...) and to my horror, it's actually the FALLOPIAN TUBE OF A TOAD!!!*Totally Stunned* I told M about it later on and he was equally amazed by it.
Found a pic online and it looks something like this:
Apparently, it has nutritional content and some say it is a cheaper version of bird nest.
Any takers???
The night ended pretty well though. His parents arrived in sg half way through our dinner. Though he assured me it's ok, i felt bad for taking up his time to spend with his parents. He did stopped by to visit them for a short while before rushing back to accompany me again. So sweet right? Totally made my day after a bad week of "kite-flying". And for once, in fact i should say almost everytime when i am with M, i felt glad to be in the company of someone who don't rush through every lunch/dinner or movie date. I guess for us, having a slow, casual dinner while engaging in a decent conversation is a sign of respect and appreciation for the other person. This is what i meant by quality time! :)
*Ps: M said he likes the card :D Thanks to Pea for rushing the card out for me! :)
FIRST HE INSULTED ME, MAKING PERSONAL ATTACKS ON MY CHARACTER AND ACCUSED ME OF HORRIBLE STUFF WHICH IS ENTIRELY NOT TRUE.
THEN HE WENT ON TO INSULT MY FRIENDS, ACCUSING THEM TO BE THE SAME AS ME.
AND FINALLY, HE INSULTED MY COMPANY & COLLEAGUES, CLAIMING THAT THEY TRIED TO CHEAT HIS MONEY JUST BECAUSE HE PAID A LOT FOR IT (BIG DEAL, I HAVE CLIENTS PAYING MORE THAN HIM AND NONE OF THEM SAID THE SAME THING)
AND GUESS WHAT'S THE BEST PART?
HE ACTUALLY SAID THIS:
" IF NOT FOR THE FREE GIFT, I WOULD NOT HAVE SIGNED UP WITH YOU. ALL OTHER COMPANIES GIVING SOME GIFTS, YOURS IS THE SUCKIEST!"
WOW WOW WOW!!! CAN'T BELIEVE HE'S ONE OF THOSE GIAM PENG AND CHEAPO ASSHOLE! I THOUGHT ONLY KIASU PEOPLE BEHAVES LIKE THAT??? HE TOTALLY BEHAVES LIKE THOSE TYPICAL AUNTIES WHO WILL JUST KNOCK YOU OUT OF THE WAY JUST TO BE THE FIRST IN THE QUEUE TO GET A FREE SAMPLE! AND FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH, I DON'T THINK OUR GIFTS SUCKS AT ALL. IN FACT, HE'S THE FIRST CLIENT I HAD WHO COMPLAINED THE GIFTS SUCKS. IN NORMAL CASE, MOST PEOPLE WILL BE APPRECIATIVE TO RECEIVE IT COS IT'S A BY-THE-WAY THING. CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IDIOTIC BASTARD HAS NO SENSE OF APPRECIATION AT ALL. ALL HE EVER DOES IS TO COMPLAIN ABOUT EVERY SINGLE THING UNDER THE SUN.
ARRGH!!! I REALLY FEEL LIKE KILLING SOMEONE NOW!!
I FELT SO UPSET AND GRIEVED ABOUT THE WHOLE SITUATION. IT'S TOTALLY NOT WORTH IT! ALL THE EFFORT I EXPENDED IN RETURN FOR ALL THESE KINDA SHIT! I SERIOUSLY REGRETTED TAKING UP HIS BIZ. GIVEN A CHOICE NOW, I WOULD RATHER GIVE IT A MISS.
NOW I AM SO GLAD THAT I MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE TO WALK AWAY...
THE HYPOCRISY & FALSE PRETENSE ALL THESE WHILE HAVE FINALLY REVEALED THEIR TRUE COLOURS.
YOU ARE JUST A WOLF IN SHEEP'S CLOTHINGS, THE LEOPARD THAT NEVER CHANGES ITS SPOTS!
NO WONDER PEOPLE CANNOT STAND HIM IN THE PAST.
NO WONDER PEOPLE WALKED AWAY FROM HIM.
NO WONDER HE IS STILL AN ANGRY SICK OLD MAN TODAY.
NO WONDER HE DID NOT GET PROMOTED AFTER SO MANY YEARS.
BASICALLY HIS ATTITUDE SUCKS AND HE JUST THINKS TOO HIGHLY OF HIMSELF.
SINCE YOU THINK WE SINGAPOREANS ARE TRYING TO CHEAT YOUR MONEY, JUST FUCKING GO BACK TO YOUR FUCKING COUNTRY. YOU ARE A DISGRACE TO PEOPLE IN YOUR COUNTRY. DON'T MAKE IT SEEM LIKE WE ARE LUSTING AFTER YOU! YOU ARE JUST PLAIN CHILDISH ! AND I THINK YOUR MORAL CHARACTER DESERVES A THOROUGH EXAMINATION SINCE YOU ARE NOT EXACTLY THE MOST HONEST PERSON I HAVE SEEN. YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID. IT'S JUST YOUR NATURE. NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE! EVERYTHING IS YOUR FAULT SO DON'T KEEP BLAMING IT ON OTHERS !
AND FOR SURE, YOU ARE DEFINITELYNOT A SAINT, SO DON'T MAKE YOURSELF SOUND LIKE ONE!
FROM NOW ON, I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP ANYMORE!
YOU KNOW WHY?
BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE LEFT IN THIS WORLD. AT LEAST I AM LUCKY TO HAVE PEOPLE AROUND ME NOW WHO KNOWS HOW TO TREAT ME WITH LOVE & RESPECT.
DO YOU?
SADLY, I DON'T THINK SO.
AND YOU CAN CONTINUE TO BE AN ANGRY, LONELY AND PATHETIC MAN FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!!!
I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU AND I AM NOT GONNA BE CONTROL BY YOU ANYMORE!
HURRAYYYYYY!!!!!
*Ps: Sorry for all the CAPS cos i have so much hatred for this BASTARD right now that i just wanna vent my frustration here!
Happened to come across this song while i was browsing the web one day. It's been playing in my head for the past few days. In fact, i fell in love with it the first time i heard it. The video is kinda cute, so i just wanna share it here :)
I don't know but I think I maybe Fallin' for you Dropping so quickly Maybe I should Keep this to myself Waiting 'til I Know you better
I am trying Not to tell you But I want to I'm scared of what you'll say So I'm hiding what I'm feeling But I'm tired of Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time Just thinking about ya I don't know what to do I think I'm fallin' for you I've been waiting all my life And now I found ya I don't know what to do I think I'm fallin' for you I'm fallin' for you
As I'm standing here And you hold my hand Pull me towards you And we start to dance All around us I see nobody Here in silence It's just you and me
I'm trying Not to tell you But I want to I'm scared of what you'll say So I'm hiding what I'm feeling But I'm tired of Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time Just thinking about ya I don't know what to do I think I'm fallin' for you I've been waiting all my life And now I found ya I don't know what to do I think I'm fallin' for you I'm fallin' for you
Oh I just can't take it My heart is racing The emotions keep spinning out
I've been spending all my time Just thinking about ya I don't know what to do I think I'm fallin' for you I've been waiting all my life And now I found ya I don't know what to do I think I'm fallin' for you I'm fallin' for you I think I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it I want you all around me And now I just can't hide it I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)
